The Official Blog of Joseph Baker

Yes, I can turn a phrase.

I have a confession to make. I have created within my company and for people who read my books a lofty image of my life, namely my wife that does not exist. There I go again. Fiona and I are not officially married at this point in time. And while the feelings II have expressed for her are true the nature of our relationship is not.

Life and other challenges have changed us. After our marriage she was hurt in the most cruelest of ways and that has hardened her heart in some ways. It has turned her into someone who can not honestly love me and I have chosen to ignore that. Instead I go to a fictional world as I always do and created what I want.

In my fictional world she is still is the young naive girl who noticed me when no one else did. I was going through so much when I met her. Namely, I was constantly fighting with my mother and doctors over my chemotherapy and it was taking a lot out of me. So, in a way I always see her as the only person who took the time to comfort me when I needed it most and I haven't changed that image and that has been my downfall.

What we have is partially superficial I realize that and I also see it is hurting my career. I made my life my career so I believe how I present it is important, that is why I am writing this. I want my readers to forget the term JSO and anything she has said or done.

Fiona has a troubled heart and past and it is none of our responsibility to judge her for it. And I would hope no one would judge me for it.

Our relationship is complicated and is only getting more so but,it is also personal and that is how it should stay.

While JB is off doing minimal work for optimal pay I guess I'll have a try at another entry. It was almost 10-12 years ago around this time that I first met JB at my old high school. I have to admit that right now JB and (kids, stop reading this) are going through a hard time and aren't living together right now, but we think it's for the best. He can do his work and I can do mine. I've always wondered why people call me JSO. I thought it was because we aren't married but I guess the term goes both ways. I'd hang myself before callin him my DH online.

I don't really have much to say except to share a little something with you. One of my friends made this a while ago and I thought you all may want to know how much of a sap Joel is. I can't think of anything else, but I may hack into Joel's autobiography site and add my two cents.

XOXOXO

JSO

I guess I cannot ignore what has been going on but, I'm not going to make a big deal about it. I have to admit I will have to change some passwords but, I think my wife has made her point and I know she wouldn't want me making it for her. The internet can be a great and cruel thing, Jill and Greta tell me that people are constantly writing about me and Cobalt online and that is fine, I would be lying if I didn't say I don't look at the occasional Halle Berry chatroom or fansite but, I think that stuff need to stay off of my blog.

I will also say that I would ask the Admin of the blog where this started to find the e-mail address of the person who posted those things and then ban them. This person seemed to have hacked into. Ms. Harrison's account also and used it to publish the document online. Now I am done with that.

We have finally put a final date on the release of my autobiography it will be out on Sept. 19th or for a more dramatic touch 09.19.09. In the end I decided to let it be published as is and I made no changes to it whicih is why it is coming out so soon. After that I am not sure where I will be going or what I will be writing next.

I see myself having more time on my hands so, I may be spending more time with my company or attempting to go back to school.

Only time will tell.

Hello, Joel Baker Fans

So, this is whom you guys like to refer to a JSO. Even though that's not my name it's kind of catchy and is shorter then spelling out my full name.

First things first. I noticed some information on one of my children was put online but I want to make it clear that I would never hurt my children. Christopher Robin is a sick child, I don't feel like I need to go into detail but it's been hard on Joel and I and has lead to some of the strain in our relationship.I can't help but to get angry when I'm accused of something so evil and disgusting. Like most of you knowing what Joel has been through has changed my outlook on everything. I would never want to make my kids hurt the way Joel still is.

I want to respect my son's privacy and leave that at that. If you are genuinely concerned I'm sure you can find the doctor and talk to them. I spent almost two years getting my ass kicked by the military so I'd like to think I can take a lot. But hearing what people accused me of made is hard for me to even sleep. I don't care what you put online but leave my children out of it. I'm going to leave this topic at that and hopefully I'll be able to sleep better.

Onto less sad news

So this whole Behind Blue Eyes thing is a book idea that Rosenwall asked me about because they wanted a lighter version of Joel's Autobiography. It's like those 19 page books you see in bargain sections about celebrities. I really did it for the money but my lack of writing skills has led me to consider declining, but the artwork is nice.

I know you all have been curious about me so here goes. I was born in small town Colorado. I was very creative and had a big imagination that somehow led me to the small town of Oaklande, PA where I met Joel, but this isn't about him. I am very intelligent and am a raging feminist. Right now I work as a doctor and I like knitting, shopping and hope to meet Johnny Depp one day

I don't really have anything else to say. I just went to work, took my kids to the lake, then I went home and watched Bravo on Demand on my flat screen tv.

I won't answer any comments (cause people told me I shouldn't) so don't bother asking me questions

XOXOXO
- JSO

p.s I only choose green because it shows up best, I swear I'm not obseesed with colors like some people.

I think one of the most prevalent experiences as a parent is when something happens to your child that scares you more than it does them. I also think another experience of loving anyone really is when you put not only their safety but state of mind before your own. I had both of those experiences today.

My family and I recently moved into a new house and with moving comes putting stuff together and moving boxes. After I got off work I had dragged my body (and wheelchair) upstairs to take a shower. I was heading for the bathroom when my 8 year old daughter was walking towards me and then she screams. I'll save the gory details but she stepped on a nail and I went to go and take it out of her foot.

Earlier that day in my Physical Therapy I had been working on using my legs somewhat so, I hadn't completely lost my mind when I got out of my wheelchair but, my body didn't want to cooperate and I fell down the stairs and landed on my arm twice. I heard my arm broke and by this time my oldest daughter had taken care of Leanna who despite the screaming a dew seconds before was doing just fine. I didn't want to alarm my children so I called my doctors and everything and I have one of these things now but, at that moment it took a lot out of me not to throw out every word in the book or to start crying because it hurt like a bitch.

Now I am doing fine, I'm just tired and I am starting to miss that beautiful girl I am married to at the time. I do wish she were here with me right now because I feel like such a loser and I really just want t be around her right now, the things she does for me make me feel so much better.

But, I am glad it is Saturday so I have all day off and I will be recovering and getting back to work.

I am working on a new project, but it's very different than what I normally do and I'm not sure where it is going. It is one of those this is a crazy idea I had kind of stories.

Totally Random Sidenote -- Jill told me someone spelled my daughters name Leighanna or something somewhere and I think that looks so much nicer, I may just change it.

Hello everyone !

It's Jill, I'm blogging while Joel is off writing his heart out, he must be on to something.

Anyway Joel's autobiography (tentatively called The Blue-Eyed Saint) is still on hold so, he was nice enough to post some more raw pieces online.

Joel will be posting in here more about his experiences at a later time

Find them here.

P.S Yes I am pregnant BTW

Jill

Hello, everyone I have a lot to get through in this post.

First of all the official word on my injury is that I had lead posioning from a stray fragment of a bullet I was shot with a few months ago. When I fell a month later the fragment went into my spine and no one noticed what was wrong until recently. I had the surgery to remove what was causing my paralysis and now I am relearning how to work my body after not moving for so long so I have been going to a lot of therapy but, like I've said I have wonderful doctors and a network of support that I appreciate more than I can put in words.

I want to thank all of the people who enjoy reading my books who have been great. I know I was a little out of it and not in the best shape during a LA Truth About Forest book signing but people came out and stayed despite that. And I know I was even worse in NYC but, I really did enjoy getting to meet all of you and learing about the people who enjoy my books. Speaking of NYC, some of you had the opprotunity to meet my family including my significant other who usually chooses to stay away from my work events. I was told she came off as cold to some of the fans but, she really is one of the warmest, sweetest women I have ever met and if she wasn't I wouldn't have spent 10 years with her. Honestly the trip itself was last minute and as many of you saw (and heard) it was very stressful on all of us.

I also appreciate all the flowers, cards and balloons.

We (Jill, Greta and I) are planning a few more events because I really want to show my appreciaton for all of you. I will say they will be around LA or the midwest because I have commitments to my family and doctors right now.

As far as my writing career is going I am back at Cobalt (as some of you have seen) and trying to work on a few different things. Getting back into writing for days at a time has been harder than I thought but, I am working through it. As far as my autobiography is going a few copies were published but somehow it ended up back at my editors chopping block. However we are working on it hours at a time.

In other news I am finally allowed to say

My lovely publicist and good friend Jill Lamberton-Ryder is pregnant.