Yes, I can turn a phrase.
I have a confession to make. I have created within my company and for people who read my books a lofty image of my life, namely my wife that does not exist. There I go again. Fiona and I are not officially married at this point in time. And while the feelings II have expressed for her are true the nature of our relationship is not.
Life and other challenges have changed us. After our marriage she was hurt in the most cruelest of ways and that has hardened her heart in some ways. It has turned her into someone who can not honestly love me and I have chosen to ignore that. Instead I go to a fictional world as I always do and created what I want.
In my fictional world she is still is the young naive girl who noticed me when no one else did. I was going through so much when I met her. Namely, I was constantly fighting with my mother and doctors over my chemotherapy and it was taking a lot out of me. So, in a way I always see her as the only person who took the time to comfort me when I needed it most and I haven't changed that image and that has been my downfall.
What we have is partially superficial I realize that and I also see it is hurting my career. I made my life my career so I believe how I present it is important, that is why I am writing this. I want my readers to forget the term JSO and anything she has said or done.
Fiona has a troubled heart and past and it is none of our responsibility to judge her for it. And I would hope no one would judge me for it.
Our relationship is complicated and is only getting more so but,it is also personal and that is how it should stay.
Happily Never After
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): I had no idea, I wish she could still be that girl so you could be happy. you seem so hurt and you don't deserve that.
I agree with everything you have written here. I hope this blows over.
JB
I think you are extremely talented and I will never stop being a fan, but this entry (if you wrote is) is extremly troubling. It's not healthy to spend ten years with someone who you have fictionalized to make them how you want them to stay. I'd hate to think you doing that caused some of her ways. You say you don't judge her for her past but do you think maybe you should ? It seems to me like you are treating her like a child who isn't being held responsible for thier actions.. you just seem to be hurting and when you hurt the fans do to.
You'll find Mrs. Right out there somewhere. We are all rooting for you.
Fans won't be using SO since you two aren't together. You are to good of a man to have to deal with this. Break-ups are hard but you'll find someone
What kind've of woman treats a man like that. You have given her a beautiful family and a succesful busniess. I think we were all jealous of your wife because of how you spoke about her, how can the feelings not be mutual. She just seems like a mean-spirited woman.
It's okay to want to keep the perfect image of someone. It's so sweet. I've always told people you remind me of a younger (lol) Edward.
Hun, it's really sad that you had to write an entry like this. I'm really feeling for you.
I hope she reads this and realize how terrible she's been.
She'd better DIAF for making you like this.
Okay Mr. Baker.
People need to stop treating you like some baby. So your ex-wife is a crazy d-bag. Stop whining to us and get a life. AND all you fans. He IS NOT going to marry you. He's probably going to come out on the cover of PEOPLE who don't matter, next week.
@ Baker-Hater
He is hurting,and we fans are just trying to make him feel better. forutunaly JB had female fans to fill the void let by his mother and bitchy-ex.
I'm praying for you, dear
*Hugs*
It's great that she was there for you, but nothing should cloud a wife's love for her husband. Marriage is forever.
Hello everyone,this is Jill. Due to the nature of some comments we are turning off the option for comments for now.
Joel,
I've read your blog for a while and hate the drama your ex has put you through. I swear that I'm not crazy and if you give me a chance I can filly the void in your life. I know what it's like to have a hard past and we can work through it together. I'm only 24 but we have more in common than we think. Give it a chance. you never know !
- Love
Carleigh
Glad you turned back on the comments, we here in Pennsylvania wish you the best. There is a silver lining.
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